New Year - 2010 changes

So it's been awhile since Thelma or I blogged. I've been going through some stuff lately and can honestly say that I'm glad that we started this blog.

David and I have been together for almost 5 1/2 years. And because of that, there's about 5 years of drama and not so normal couple stuff that's been going on.

In July, I kind of decided I had just had it. I discovered a picture of another woman on our pictures on the computer. She was on all fours, ass out for the whole world to see. The definition of a classy whore. I confronted him, of course, he got mad at me and I proceeded to pack my things. He talked me into talking which obviously talked me into staying. And I've been increasingly bitter ever since. And no boys and girls, this is not the first such incident. Missed calls from local motels, instant messaging, craigslist ads in the history, yada yada yada.

You ask why I put up with such nonsense? I don't know. Perhaps the same reason that I stayed with another guy for 4 years. It's comfortable. Or maybe I'm a masochist and I enjoy taking emotional blow after emotional blow?

This morning I was watching the news while David was getting ready for work. Lucky for me, I have this entire week off. On the news crawl on the bottom of the screen one tidbit of news was "Facebook cause of increase in divorces". I had to admit, I found that statement to be quite humorous. No, we are not married. But it just so happens that I have reconnected with someone from my past via Facebook. And in the time that we've been talking, he has taught me that there is more to a relationship that just mediocrity. He and I have become quite smitten with one another. It's really made me see from a different perspective.

In 2010, I think I will most likely end my relationship with David. I don't know when because I have a lot of stuff to work out, but I think it's something that needs to be done. Of course, my new friend has something to do with my decision, but is not the entire reason for my decision.

My new friend....let's call him Luke is presently in Afghanistan. He just began his 8th tour on December 23rd. So yeah, that's a lot to take in. I don't know how I always find myself in some type of mess, but I do. I follow my heart - and that may just be my ultimate downfall at some point.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted with anything that goes on.

Until then, Happy New Year. I hope everyone has a better 2010 than 2009.

-Louise